What is rightfully ours

I was driving last night going back to college, and listening to music on radio. My fav station is of course Lite FM (no song like old songs, I'd say), and one of my favorite track is on the air, The Bangles - Eternal Flame I listen through the lyrics (all the song I love is not because of the music, but I'm more focused on the lyrics). One of those lines got me:

I believe it's meant to be, darling 

How do we know its meant to be? Is it because we together, is that means we meant to be? For the moment maybe, but is it really meant to be forever? That really got me thinking, what is ours in the first place? Is our own self is ours? Is this car I'm driving is mine? Is the breath I take is mine? I just stunned, and without me knowing, tears running down my cheek. I kept thinking that whet I have is mine, but no, I'm so wrong.

Nothing is ours, not this self, not this car, not this breath, or anything in between. Its amanah from Allah, everything. Our own money in the pocket, is it ours? Nope. Soon, it'll end up somewhere, at petrol pump, toll booth, our debt to friends, etc. The only money that for us is the one we take down our mouth, yes the thing we eat, thing we drink. Others might have more money than us, but remember, that is not rightfully to them. It'll end up somewhere we might never know. So be thankful on what we have, because its amanah from Allah. The more we have, the bigger our responsibility.

Then it got me thinking about my ex girlfriend. She's not mine no matter how much we promised, its not ours to make such decision. We could try to make it happen, but at the end of the day Allah have set the course in our life. Its His decision that matters. So from that moment, all my sorrow just blows away with the wind as I drive at 100km/h, with tears shed thinking about how small I am, how insignificant human is. Its true that the word ma'nusia comes from ma'nasia which means forgot (lupa), while ma'nusia means already forgotten (telah lupa), not will forgotten (akan lupa), but already forgotten. Astagfirullahalazim.....how long I have in this dreams oh Allah....forgive this puny self for forgetting about your warning, about your sign everywhere, because I really am, a forgotten nature.