I never thought I would say this again, but for this past few weeks I felt very empty. Very lonely. I have no drive at all. Going to class and back, and that is all I do. In my heart I feel nothing, absolute nothing. The only thing that kept me going is one single thing; hope. The hope that one day I would find the certain someone, its not that I haven't tried my best. I did my very best, but I guess love are not meant to be search, but found. And that is the hardest thing I ever felt. Although there is hope, what would I do in the in-between these two period? I pray day and night, I never lose hope.
But it is very hurtful to think that deep inside my mind I still thinking about my past, still somewhere deep inside she still lurking, the same kind of situation in movie Inception. I dare to say she is one in a million, maybe once in a lifetime. I did wrote her something like that, I wrote tons of poem that I never know I capable of writing. I guess love can create something amazing.
I pray that one day, I will get a better substitute for her, someone who could understand me better. Because truthfully I am one of the weirdest person alive. I have tons of things I didn't do. I'm not one-of-your-average guy. Everything from thinking, eating, speaking and writing. I am different. I hope that person would be as special as me. Someone who completes me, inside and out.
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